Listening.  Just listening.  I do a lot of listening.   I wish I didn't  have to do so much listening.  I want to write.  Write something wonderful.  

The world of genealogy, gardening, music, affirmations, wonderful quotations.  

I have so much anxiety -- the nagging feeling of dread.  The feeling of being trapped.  I have the feeling that I am going to burst if I don't do something creative - or outstanding - or memorable - remarkable.  I am so obsessed with leaving a legacy.  Just to get on with it but facing a blank screen.  The stark white blank screen.  We'll I haven't discovered it yet and I'm have the extreme feeling of running out of time.  My legacy clock is ticking.